This year when I started AP Lang I thought it would be my hardest class and that I would stress a ton over it among many other classes. Then I got to meet Mr.Thomas who taught me that I shouldn't stress as much as long as I know I did the best I could do. I feel like that's how I've grown to learn that as long as I've tried my best then I'm not as stressed as I use to be in previous years and I don't have to strive for the absolute best.. One of my biggest challenges this year was  probably learning  the strategies for the multiple choice portion of the AP exam I don't know why but I found that the hardest thing. Another hard thing was the rhetorical analysis essay because I sucked at rhetorical devices. The easiest essay was the argumentation essay because I just found it flowing and easy. My favorite book was definitely The  Things They Carried because I felt I could relate to the most with coming from a military family and I felt like I understood what my grandpa's and great uncles went through. My least favorite book was summer reading book Devil In The White City that book was torture. I could have gotten a college degree in architecture just by reading that book it was so boring. I just want  you to know Mr.Thomas you were the best  teacher I've ever had (well besides Mr.Young lol) and  I really think you can change the world. I feel like if anyone would have the chance to make a difference it would be you.

 The physical thing that I carry is my phone. Without my phone I feel lost like disconnected from the world. It's like without my phone there is no outlet. When I have my phone it's like I have my friends in my pocket and I feel lost without my friends.
 My dreams and goals is to go to college out of state. I love my family but I absolutely hate them at the same time and I just want to leave get away and actually have thoughts for myself. Not having to listen and be who my dad wants me to be because I don't want to be him I want to be me. I want to have a say on my own things and my dad just isn't very good at listening to anyone but himself. I'm tired of all the yelling and screaming and fighting with that man my motivation is to go to an out of state college.
 My Martha is my best friend. He helps me through every thing. In middle school everyone hated him but I never really knew him until high school but he helps with every thing. No matter if it's 2 am in the morning because I'm crying or upset. He is my best friend.
 Three things that describe me is weird, an outcast and lonely. I've never really had much friends so I try to stay close but sometimes it doesn't work because I don't do as much as others I'm just out there.
 My memories that shape me are the ones that I've probably gotten hurt in like falling off things busting my chin things that I've hurt me I keep them for I guess safety purposes. But those are the five things that I carry

It's hard being mixed between two races and maybe more because you don't know what side to take. I guess if I dated it back I'm from Europe just like everyone else but it's harder than that in today's society. I don't know how to explain I am Spanish but everyone thinks if you are Spanish you must be Mexican and illegal well I am not I'm Puerto Rican and legal or do I take my mother's side and am white and just try to fit in the white society.

I try to incorporate both races. I sorta celebrate Spanish holidays as well as white holidays. But it's still hard to tell people when they ask what race are you? And you just stare at them with a blank face trying to decide what are you going to be today. Will you be a white and everyone thinks you are either a prep or a misunderstood teen or Spanish when everyone thinks you're Mexican and illegal.

Sometimes I don't know what to put on tests when they ask for my  race. I know of I put Spanish I will get scholarships just for being Spanish but when they see me will they think I'm white and lying or when I don't speak Spanish as well as I should. So how do I bring both heritages in my life. I honestly don't know how I would be true to both or just stick to one.

What is the third option would be a mix a both. I can celebrate American New Years on its holiday and celebrate  the Puerto Rican tradition like washing my sins into the ocean on a cool June night. But also have my own thing something that symbolizes me but I honestly don't know what that is.

I don't think there is a third category. I think life is just the way it is and there's no stopping it.  

 Edgar Allen Poe was an amazing demented writer. I would copy a lot of things from Fall Of The House Of Usher but there are some things I would do differently. 

 For instance I absolutely love the cliffhanger but i hate it all at the same time. I would would differently change the cliffhanger and make it into an even twisted story. I would also change the old English thing I would make it more modern. 

   I would copy the incest, description of the house, his hysteria, even though I hate it his cliffhanger and try to copy his sick imagination. Poe's sick demented imagination is the cause of everything. This is the reason his stories are like this. I love how the family is pure incest and that is the reason why his friend is going crazy. The way he describes the house as if it is just a hallucination. 

 I would copy these things because he does such a good job at portraying and making you experience this fear.It's like Poe wanted to see others suffer the kind of fear that he goes through.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  

America is fascinated with  the supernatural there have been a number of cases were everyone is all into the ghost faze.  From movies to stories to even chain letters Americans have been increasing there belif in ghosts.  Maybe because it draws us to something we can't see or touch kinda like how air keeps us alive but we can't see or touch it but we trust it and rely on it to keep us alive.

Good man brown was sort of obsessed he was very fascinated  with what goes on in the woods just like many Americans are.  It starts out with chain letters many kids send chain letters saying if you  don't send this you will  die at midnight or they will come back and haunt you.  All of these things fascinate us because we want to see them but if you do you will die so it's gone of a win loose.

We make tons of tv shows about ghost like ghost hunters  even though all you see  is a shadow and hear a bunch of words all jumbled up  but we still believe it because you can't touch it you can't really see it. There is no connection to us and them besides that little outlit right there and  Americans want that they crave that. Just like everyone else does it's not just us but it's human nature to be fascinated with what we can't see.
 
Stories excite us  they let us become into the unknown. Learn what it's about gives us horror and excitement makes our heart skip a beat.  It's a wonderfull feeling to feel fear  it's new  and odd. I think that's what excites humans the most to be fascinated with ghosts. It's just in our nature .

Similarities between Ichabod Crane and

   This is a blog about Ichabod Crane and an anti hero. My anti hero is Shia LaBeouf from the movie Lawless. They are both cowards, cry babies, and wimpy! wimpy! wimpy! Both characters are very much alike even though Shia LaBeouf sold moonshine illegally and Ichabod ran away from his problems we still feel bad for them.  

   Both characters act like they are courage the cowardly dog. They both try to act tough and like to the know the darkest side of things but in reality they cant handle it by themselves. It's like they try to act liek the tough mob guy act but as soon as it starts to engulf them its over it cant be done its impossible to deal with because the darkness engulfs ichabod and takes over him. Like the police engulf Shia LaBeouf to take him and his brothers down.

        They both act this very feminine and sentitive. Ichabod tries to understand Katrina while Shia LaBeouf is trying to whoo a girl whose father doesnt aprove of him. They both try to under the women and want to whoo them and treat them as queens.

    I think Ichabod was trying to run away from his problems just like Shia LaBeouf. Ichabod was trying to hid from Brom while Shia hid from the people trying to attack his brothers. Neither of them wanted to deal with their problems but the only difference between the two is in the end Ichabod is gone and Shia LaBeouf fought for his right against the dirty cop from the north trying to kill him.